It is hard to believe that it has been almost six whole months since I swallowed my pride and accepted the fact that I needed help for my anxiety. So much has changed in the last six months and I am so proud of myself for the insane amount of progress I have made. I feel like I can finally live again and not be controlled by constant worry, paranoia, or the defensiveness that accompany anxiety. The people that I surround myself with now are positive and loving and that has made my journey a lot easier for me. Looking back at how certain events and friendships played out I feel like if I had figured out the anxiety situation sooner, then some of those events would have ended differently. That is life for you though! Can’t change the past but you can take control of your future!
I guess I wanted to share this because I want y’all to know that it is ok to accept that you need help. Trust me, I was horrified at the thought of taking medication because I was afraid that I would lose my creativity. I know that is a silly fear but for me writing is everything, so the thought of losing the ability to create my literary worlds was terrifying. I realized after taking my medication that it does the opposite. By correcting the imbalance that caused my anxiety, I have been able to create, write, and adventure more because I am not shackled by my constant fear. All this progress would not have been possible if I did not decide that it was time to go see a doctor.
Six months and one medicine adjustment later and I can tell you that I defeated my anxiety dragon! Anxiety will always be a part of my life but I will no longer let it define me!
I hope y’all enjoyed my little update and I hope y’all have a wonderfully literary day!